SHE LET GO by Ernest Holmes

SHE LET GO
She let go. Without a thought or a word, she let go.
She let go of the fear. She let go of the judgments. She let go of the confluence
of opinions swarming around her head. She let go of the committee of indecision
within her. She let go of all the ‘right’ reasons. Wholly and completely, without
hesitation or worry, she just let go.
She didn’t ask anyone for advice. She didn’t read a book on how to let go. She
didn’t search the scriptures. She just let go. She let go of all of the memories
that held her back. She let go of all of the anxiety that kept her from moving
forward. She let go of the planning and all of the calculations about how to do it
just right.
She didn’t promise to let go. She didn’t journal about it. She didn’t write the
projected date in her Day-Timer. She made no public announcement and put no
ad in the paper. She didn’t check the weather report or read her daily horoscope.
She just let go.
She didn’t analyze whether she should let go. She didn’t call her friends to
discuss the matter. She didn’t do a five-step Spiritual Mind Treatment. She didn’t
call the prayer line. She didn’t utter one word. She just let go.
No one was around when it happened. There was no applause or
congratulations. No one thanked her or praised her. No one noticed a thing. Like
a leaf falling from a tree, she just let go. There was no effort. There was no
struggle. It wasn’t good and it wasn’t bad. It was what it was, and it is just that.
In the space of letting go, she let it all be. A small smile came over her face. A
light breeze blew through her. And the sun and the moon shone forevermore.
Ernest Holmes

Dreams... Maybe of the fireworks

Gratitude Day three

Grateful for walking in the woods yesterday, finding the boys old fort, thinking of Mrs. Acors, finding a fence post of the remains of the house but not finding the house, then coming home and doing a wild hair lady.... who should appear.... Mrs. Acors...I didn't intend to have Mrs. Acors, but she came.  I didn't put the connections all together until later.I am grateful I had her in my life when we moved here. I still miss her.

I am grateful for the friendship filled Stars and Stripes party at Patty's house. It was filled with fellowship, laughter, love, great food, drumming, and stone wrapping and then fireworks. I had such a good time.

Grateful for this VERY life. Everything is a gift. I am grateful I can live it and not just trudge through and survive. THIS IS IT.

Mrs. Acors - my friend

Grateful DAY 2

I am so grateful it is the holiday weekend and we are going to Patty's for the Stars and Stripes tonight.
I am grateful for Sandy and her friendship. It is her birthday today and I am blessed with her friendship.
I am grateful for awareness of my feelings and KNOW happiness is a choice.
I am grateful for Mrs. R. who taught me detachment in my room is necessary and GOOD.

Grateful

Grateful for a little angel called Nira when I was waiting in McD. She kept my attention with her charming little ways.
Grateful I found note cards in Diversity - so I can write my thank you notes.
Grateful for my soft, cozy boudoir bed, where I can relax at the end of the day.

The Journey not the destination

It is the journey of life that counts. I need to pay attention to the details of the day and live in the NOW.

Acceptance

BIG is coming along

Big....

Missing from here for a few days.

I haven't written this for a few days.... I went to Atlantic Beach for a mini girl retreat. So much fun. Relaxing and stress free. The most stress of the day was figuring out what to do... I walked, rented a bike, saw a turtle nest, talked and visited, did art with my dear friend, and a daily trip to Walmart. AND now home. I am adjusting back, but it is feeling a little odd. I will be back in the routine of it all soon. It is all good. Thank you God for the rest. It was a gift from YOU.

BIG art

At the beach

How blessed am I? With my dear friends, Long walks, art, reading, journaling, painting, ocean, relaxing, loving life. 

Fixing

Another layer.

Ugly uy . It looks like an octopus. Needs Fixing. 

More layer two

Layer two

VMFA - a favorite place

http://virginiamuseum.blogspot.com/2013/06/more-additions-to-your-art-collection_10.html

It makes me happy to go to this museum. Maybe I like all museums. We went to Chihuly in February and then Tom Wesselmann - Pop art and beyond. WONDERFUL exhibits.

Layer One

Week ONE journal of BIG

I started again and asked women on the site to share so we are not alone… but then I stopped again. I have a block to doing BIG, I guess (fear gremlin?). BUT I am not paying for another class unless I get this one done. Not finishing big could be the end of school hectic time too. SO… BIG I am going to start again. I did all the week one exercises several times over the last few weeks, incorporating them into my stuff. Maybe each week will take me a month. I painted shapes, lines, scribble and painted like a five year old. I painted flowers, trees, a turtle and generally had fun. There were no expectations. One has become a painting in the kitchen. Week one in BIG was good, except for the self imposed pressure of not getting it done (fear gremlin again?). I even have a blog set up now… hehehehehe….. and seem to have figured out how to use it.

I think it is done

Paintings on Day One

Spring

First day of summer vacay.

Here we are day one. I took Bell for the usual  battlefield walk. Now home with my boys and men around for a slow start of the holiday. 

ONE more day to work and then... freedom

Summer is here. I shall miss my students. They fill my days with smiles, lots of work and learning but mostly LOVE. How blessed am I? What shall I do with my time? Maybe try ICAD cards. http://daisyyellowart.com/icad/icad-faq.html It sounds intriguing and doable. Maybe just do my own painting, journaling, zen farming, walks, weights, tea times, visits with my parents once a week, go to the beach with my family and with my friend... oh summer time, I love you so.